Sunday, 19 July 2009

Now that I am calmer...

I am sure many will agree that it has been an overly eventful week. And I am not just referring to the tragic death of Teoh Beng Hock. I am also referring to the so-called “investigative journalism” incident. Anyone not aware of that?

Amidst all that, I have drafted a very angry and emotional post which I had the intention to publish it today. I reckon if I do post it up, I will most probably land myself in trouble. And judging by the looks of things, I might end up dead.

I am glad that I went to church today, that sermon helped calm me down. One thing for sure, my Pastor said that the bible did say… “Be angry, but do not sin”. This means Christians should feel angry and not be overly infected with the I-am-a-Christian-and-so-I-must-not-be-angry syndrome.

So I am not going to post up what I drafted. But I just want to highlight the state of hopeless-ness in our country. When I talked to some people regarding the “highlight” of last week, I was given such responses/comments:-

“I don’t talk politics”

“Khalid should answer to this” --- referring to the Selangor MB because the incident happened in Selangor, and that he should be responsible. What the fuck!!!!!! WHAT! THE! FUCK!

And the mother of all responses…

“Aiyah, even if you are in another country. A car may hit you, a plane might crash into your home, you can still die”. --- SERIOUSLY!!???? SE-RIOUS-LY!!!!!

Looking back, I realise I should not feel angry and overly emotional. With so many people with the above sentiments, this country deserves to be what it is today. After I have calmed myself down, I should just concentrate with my plan and no feeling about the rest.


1 year ago…
Counselling at the mamak

2 years ago… Those auto messages

27 comments:

Johnson Tee said...

Malaysia - Run by murderers, crooks and idiots!

Sivin Kit said...

I don't mind having a sneak peek at the "unpublished" post :-)

MKL said...

It is sad to live in a country where speaking your mind can put you in harms way... Malaysia is a wonderful country, the people, the cultures... but when it comes to politics, it's a mess. I sense that many young Malaysians are really progressive and willing to change the system, but the old guys won't let go. You need change. Yes you can! Good luck with that.

goingkookies said...

unfortunately, that is a very typical malaysian response.

most ppl dun even bother to know about the happenings of the country.

i mean, sometimes, why know? just get urself so riled up about it and nothing is being done. in this case, ignorance is truly bliss

but with so much injustices and if no one cares or do sth about it.. things will just get worse and NOT improve for the better...

so, blogging and voicing out is one of a good way to get ppl's attention.. educate ur readers.. highlight to them... it is one step

vegemaster said...

Glad you didnt post up your drafted post cause not only will it land you into trouble, it will be wasted and serve no purpose.

Malaysia isnt hopeless but rather helpless. Helpless in the fact that some/most of us realize all the crap going on around us but would rather turn the other way because there's just nothing we can do.

Being silenced is one thing. But to actually think its ok to be silenced.. thats just sad.

TRACE said...

zewt, im glad that u dont have "the above sentiment" as some people.
This country really deserves to be what it is today?

Ai Shiang said...

zewt, politics still is such a sensitive issues back home huh? I have hated politics since young.
If the government isn't care about improvement for its people, why should other care huh?

Siew said...

Sigh!

joshua wong said...

Zewt

Maybe you should have published your 'angry' post. But then again, why get yourself into trouble if most of your readers are the "tidak apa" type. And if they're the 'awaken' type then they're probably as angry as you and me.

Next time your ignorant friends said the "a car may hit you, a plane might crash into your home" kind of shit, just tell them "yes, in another country, a police officer may beat the shit out of you, you can still die and still no one will give a damn. It happens everytime". Yes, sometimes i think we really deserve this government.

As i'd said to my friends, human lives are cheap here if you're not someone of importance. I don't blame you for going on with your plan.

j or ji said...

apa jenis manusia yang berkerja mencari duit dengan menghina manusia lain?

aku tak paham.

Terra Shield said...

I for one, would love to know your thoughts on the issue, but you have to be careful these days... we seem to live in dangerous times.

A satirical version perhaps?

Anonymous said...

Kudos to you Zewt, for not being one of those who feel nothing until something befalls upon them. Those couldn't care less attitude is appaling. I like the fire in you. This is what the country needs. Ppl cant go on minding their own business only.

zewt said...

Johnson Tee - birds of the same brain flock together.

Sivin - hahaha...which part of "but do not sin" you don understand?

MKL - you are absolutely right... we cant move ahead becos those in power refuse to let us to.

goingkookies - i used to think like that... that my blogging is indeed making a difference... but i think, it's all futile.

vegemaster - damn right... to actually think it's ok to be silent is damn sad!!!!

TRACE - yes and no... sadly... we are always stuck in between.

zewt said...

Ai Shiang - it is always a mess because those are capable of changing it refuse to do anything.

Siew - ditto...

Joshua Wong - my response was... ok, u win. no point arguing really...

j or ji - siapa tu?

Terra Shield - nah... either all out of none at all.. else, no umpph...

anon @ 20/7 3.26pm - but... there are just too many of "them" out there...

Anonymous said...

yeah, its a little ridiculous. something goes wrong...then blame the selangor government...

last time it used to be khairy jamaluddin.....ohhh..."this must be khairy's doing"

recently, "ohh..najib must be held responsible...PM's office"

ppl can be idiots at times...

Rin said...

The trick is, you need to talk to the right people =P

The second person really dunno what s/he is talking about...but if we dig deeper into the 1st response, I think the underlying sentiment might be: why should I care, be angry/outraged, about politics when I can't do anything to change the state of things?

It could mean something else lah...I wasn't there so I can't fully comprehend the context of your conversation...but it's a common response I get from my friends too?

And a lot of times I found that it is not that they truly aren't interested in politics, or really naively think that it doesn't concerned them at all, but because they feel powerless (and frustrated) about the state of things...so what I try to do is to convince them that they're not as powerless as they think. That they should know about stuffs even if it makes them irritated/angry because it's important...you can't change people's mindset in one day, but, everything starts with a small step =)

As for the third response, either s/he's really incapable of human compassion, or is being really sarcastic...either way, if it's the first, I don't think this person belongs to the majority...because most Malaysians still feel sad, if not angry, about his death...so chill chill...most Malaysians are still capable of human emotions =P

Swee Ping said...

hmm.... i don't talk much about it(politics) these days because i think it is pretty pointless and disheartening at the same time because of what is going and how we all know that change might not happen soon or even going to happen yes, in terms of this, i think i am pessimistic.

it's scary bout where our country is heading to.

and we can't even have much of freedom to comment about it. that's the saddest part.

Yvonne Foong said...

I know what you mean, Zewt.I had to make a speech in class today persuading my vlassmates to vlounteer at the Malaysian Rare Disorders Society. I prepared this speech according to the Monroe's Motivational Sequence one week ago.

But I was so discouraged. Through my speech,I had hoped to make this a better place by fostering understanding betweem people with different needs. But we can only try when the place we live in are full of lies and half truths.

But I had to make that speech because it is a course activity/ So I numbed myself and did what I had to do.

Purple~MushRooM said...

I felt really excited each time I come home to Malaysia. But this time, I was feeling gloomy. I don't know why. My parents picked me up from KLIA and on the way home, I asked if they have heard of TBH case. My Dad was very upset and angry about it. I told my parents that I felt very dissappointed with this country now and I don't feel the excitement of coming home anymore. My Dad told me that many of his friends told him this: "Mike, get your passport ready. Just leave when you think it's time". My Dad was really glad that I have left this country (not leaving the citizenship yet but at least not living here now) and he always encouraged my brother to go elsewhere. I guess my Dad is feeling what I am feeling now, and I am sure he has already been feeling this way since long, long time ago...

I am very upset with this country. I used to look at thestar.com everyday. Now i don't even bother.

Mules said...

I now roll my eyes when I listen to the news. All the crap they are spinning. Seeing how the govt works leaves me fearful, angry and nauseas.

CK said...

it's not a surprise and guess the systematic oppression for half a century really did numb the mind of so many Malaysians.

can't really imagine how our country will turn into in the future....

myop101 said...

hello...

how's life?

anyway, i watched the malaysiakini videos over and over again. i feel so sad. and each time, i shed tears.

because to think death comes so suddenly. reminds me of my own mortality. imagine in death, only someone knows who you are. but who did you leave behind? it is such a tragedy.

so right now, i focus on work. yes, it is an escapist move. but what can one do? i feel so helpless and angry but i cannot succumb so low as to accuse someone without evidence.

i wonder how much more blood must be spilled before we see some semblance of justice and equality?

just the other day, i was watching history channel on the french revolution. i pity the lost of lives. is it necessary?

zewt said...

anon @ 21/7 2.06am - then who should be responsible then?

Rin - nah, when you are hot at the topic, you dont really have the luxury to choose your conversation partner. besides, it's usually the case where you are having a non-related conversation and the point came in, thus rendering u no chance to get away from their brain-less-ness.

Swee Ping - when u know it's scary where the country is heading to, and you still dont want to talk politics?

Yvonne Foong - numb is indeed a fast speading condition. a lot of ppl are infected by it.

purple mushroom - yeah, more and more parents are actually telling their children to go away... one can tell what stage we have reached.

Mules - and hypertension too!

CK - future, yes... that's the more dreaded picture, one i do not want to see.

myop101 - when it comes to a revolution, shed of blood is necessary. but i think we will never reach that stage. we are all ball-less.

rin said...

Guess what, i posted a mkini video of teoh's funeral on my fb, and of course most commentators were sad/sympathetic...but one fellow said: "who is that guy? hokkien song singer from taiwan?"...and he thought it was funny. "-.-

Swee Ping said...

Not that I don't want to talk about it, but because I feel just talking won't do a thing, unless .. well what I say can have an impact. Unless I'm in it, talking alone won't do much? Hmm... well, this is just my thought.

Can't really find a person to be able to talk politics without them getting too angry or emotional.

myop101 said...

yeah...you are probably right... we have not been reduced to widespread hunger and death where life is worth nothing....

zewt said...

rin - there u go... sign of hopelessness.

Swee Ping - haha... and dont u think we should be angry and emotional?

myop101 - yeah... almost there... but not there yet.