Friday, 31 October 2008

I have not made it...

For those who follow the comments of “Tuesday reflection on a reflection”, you will note that there is a reader by the nick of 2x2 matrix who is somewhat a self-proclaimed successful person and said that I should not complain about the modern slavery world. Some of his comments include…

“Your thinking is rather primitive and communist in nature”
“Perhaps you are disgruntled because you have not made it in life”
“Don’t be despair, try harder and you shall one day be a true capitalist”
“I am up there, but even if I fall, sorry to say it won’t come down to the level you are referring to”.
“Some people just make more money than you”


I must admit, things that he said made me reflect on my life. It’s so true; there are so many people who made more money than me… like the 4 in my department of about 30.

I guess I am just disgruntled for I have not made it in life. I am now driving a Japanese car and with my current salary, I probably can afford to only get a new BMW 3 series. How I wish I can afford a Ferrari. Sigh… I am disgruntled…

When I went to Italy for my honeymoon of 11 days, I fine dined with my lovely wife for I think 9 days of the trip. How I wish I can fine-dine for the whole 11 days. I am sure 2x2 matrix can afford to do that since ya’ know… he is “up there”.
I also bought a honeymoon remembrance gift, which is a set of 4 Venice Murano drinking glass for £500. But there was one black glass horse which I like but it cost £800. How wishI can get that and I am sure 2x2 Matrix can cause ya’ know, he is “up there” while I have not made it yet. Sigh… I am disgruntled.

And yesterday… just yesterday… I was verbally informed that I will be one of the candidates who will be recommended for a regional position in Asia. I am such a failure, I should have been offered the role directly… but I only got a potential recommendation.

I am truly jealous of what 2x2 matrix for being “up there” while I am down here.

Surely, my father who once couldn’t even afford to send me to college would have been very disappointed with me

I am going to sulk this weekend.

Zewt
Once a modern slave, always a modern slave
Where up there, or down here

70 comments:

Leona said...

Money doesn't buy joy my friend, and you are an obvious example. You are disgruntled because money is not what you really need more of, but something else. The more money you have, the less you realise you'd ever have. True joy comes from living your life the way it really matters, not having a fat bank account. You have truly been blinded...

7thlovechild said...

ahaha.. i know what you mean zewt...

Manal said...

Ape sedih2 ni??? for me u already doing very well. Did your mother get fine-dined in italy like ur jules too? Enjoying eating hawkers food together-gether prolly made her day.

Either u r too bothered by that person or u just made another (vengeful) vow to keep bettering your life. There, there, dont worry, pray that i will be a GBP billionaire so i can sign u a GBP1 million cheque as my humble gift.

rainbow angeles said...

would u hv preferred alot alot of $$$ with poor health? no, rite...

whatever it is, i wish you a Happy Life... to me, that's most important :-)

Sivin Kit said...

Primitive and communist in nature? ROFL

the first step to our personal downfall or even a misstep is comparison without due context considerations.

Oh I didn't mention pride ... that's part of it. But then that was not the subject in discussion.

gRaCe said...

hahaha... Good one Zewt.. go get him! =D

whoalse said...

I doubt you're sulking or feeling disgruntled but enjoying the "moments". From his comment, it seems he has little understanding of the cause and effect. 2x2 has only 4 boxes.....square! Money does not equate Happiness.
Have a good weekend ahead.........

p/s: so are you taking you the regional role if selected?

Thevan said...

sarcasm at its finerst! kudos!

thx fer the laugh.

CSK said...

Good attack wor, Zewt. hehe.

This 2x2 matrix dont even have his own blog or registered, If he so successful, early2 sudah ada blog like Tony Fernandez lor. Ask him or her sau pei la.

beetrice said...

2x2 matrix is a GIT. there's nothing sadder than someone proclaiming 'i'm up there" - inferiority complex alert!

good on you for the thinkly-veiled comeback... :D

Zuraida said...

spot on!kudos man!

*2x2 didn't realise that we actually shout for quality of life...not the numbers in the paycheque*

Taxy Driver said...

You know, some lifts don't go to Ground level. Some actually go lower... to where we park our Japanese cars.

whoalse said...

zewt, so no down under then?
i think i will certainly do some shoots in Msia. it's just the flight tix is a little over the top. surcharge should have dropped with the fuel price down!

Lee Su-Lyn said...

zewt, i understand what you're trying to say here. I may not know you personally, but after reading all your thoughts for almost a year now, i think i can kind of picture what kind of person you are at heart.

You have not been truly blinded. You're just stating facts, and you have my support !

goodluck in getting that position! =)

Crankster said...

Ouch. You sure know how to bitch-slap. :)

Kamigoroshi said...

Look. At the end of the day. It comes to this.

"Are you happy with the life that you have, right here, right now?"

Because if you're truly not happy, then really, what's stopping you from reaching out and taking it with your own two hands?

There are plenty of people in this world who redefine their own reality because they aren't happy with the reality they exist in now. So I don't have a silver spoon in my mouth. I worked for it. So I'm not smart enough to have it easy like a lot of my friends. Yet I worked for it. So every waking moment of my life is a fight between sanity and very dark place. But I worked for it.

I know I can never afford all the things in my life that I want. All the machines in the world that I love. It doesn't stop me from reaching out. No matter what the cost. Even if I have to literally bleed for it and I have, just to stay sane in the face of what stands between me and what I want.

The difference between a normal person and someone who is truly unique is the ability to take whatever life throws at you and shove it in its face. That's the difference between someone who will be truly happy with what they have and the countless of people out there "content" with their 9-5 jobs.

It's my life. It's my desires. I want it. I have taken it. I will keep taking it.

What's stopping you from taking yours?

Terra Shield said...

That post kicked ass. You speak for the loads of true modern slaves.

Kellaw said...

Hey. One thing I learn in life is to be content with what you have as there are others who are in far worse condition than you. Nice to know a fellow MBSian doing well.

Jed Yoong said...

HA HA HA HA HA HA

"“Your thinking is rather primitive and communist in nature”
“Perhaps you are disgruntled because you have not made it in life”
“Don’t be despair, try harder and you shall one day be a true capitalist”
“I am up there, but even if I fall, sorry to say it won’t come down to the level you are referring to”.
“Some people just make more money than you”"

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
He sounds worse that ME.
HA HAH A HA HA HA HA HA HA.
Dun compare-lah, Zewt? Just be happy, there is always someone better or worse than you. ;)

myop101 said...

tsk tsk....

and you actually bother to reply to that fellow... so disappointed *wink, wink*

myop101 said...

eh zewt...

this is on something else ok...

i just saw the new ipod touch ad... 16G for only RM1229!

surely you can afford it with ...er... 2-3 days take home pay? get it la... you can then forget about that 2x2 matrix...:)

i am contemplating...haha....

jemima said...

Wealthy people are no happier than those of modest means.

Have a Blessed Weekend! ;)

JoMel said...

aww... strange that this fella can say things like that. As if he has access to your bank account. As if he knows how much you earn. As if he knows all about your life. Does he even know your name? Haha! Zewt, obviously there is no need to "proof" anything when you come across unreasonable weirdos like that. right? ;)

Theodwyn said...

lol...

Lil' Ms Pinky said...

Gee, I am disgruntled that you could travel business class while I had to serve you!

Have a great weekend!

Kok Jin said...

where's the loner 2x2 now? he ain't gonna make any replies again? loser...what a loser.

Rin said...

omg good this post is so funny *ROFL*

It's obvious 2x2 matrix is full of himself, he sounds like Percy from Harry Potter. LOL

But thanks to him, now we all know you're actually quite well-off, and could be pretty sarcastic at times, I wouldn't wanna get on the wrong side w/ u =P

Klaw said...

You've obviously done well for yourself, and you're continuing to do well for yourself and your family, so just ignore the bugger lah.

littlepolaris said...

U know zewt, you are richer than me la. Xmas coming, buy me a chocolate cream chip from starbucks? =D U sure can afford this one ahaha.

Whatever it is, money is important only to fulfill basic necessities. What is the most important is family and love. I guess 2x2 is lack of some attention and love so he trying to 'kik' u.

p/s: I'll be waiting for that chocolate cream chip this coming Xmas. HAhaha

Freethinker said...

Walauyeh... macam ni pun boleh.... especially the nominated part... cha dou...

LOL.

Anonymous said...

aiyo u're just the same la as that guy la.in a way bragging abt the things u can afford....and u havent even gone regional Yet,so dont start on tht until uve really achieved it

Faisal Admar said...

to me money and happiness are 2 things that go along. a perfect match.

i don't have to choose as i want both.

rich is just a measurement. what is your definition of rich? 1 million? 2 millions? 100 millions? it depends. but to look down at 1 cent since you have 1 million is not right. we all start with 1 cent.

i hope "he" can put that in his mind :)

Theodwyn said...

Lol.. even your comments are funny... Some people don't get it do they....

2x2 matrix said...

Firstly thanks for responding to my comment. I think you have misconstrued my initial comments. You said that I will definitely fall, or fail.

I just wanted to point out to you in a very blunt way that you are no different from the people "up there". As you clearly demonstrated in this posting that you are no average Joe. You will be affected by whatever is happening in the global economy.

Anyway, I can sense that you don't appreciate what I have commented and became defensive over it. I apologize if I have offended you, this is your blog in any case.

zewt said...

Leona - hello there. welcome to AZAIG. you got me wrong.

7thlovechild - hello... cool... cool...

Manal - wooooaaaahhh... i shall pray for that day... thank you for your kind gift...

rainbow angeles - of cos i prefer health... :)

Sivin Kit - oh... didnt consider that.... that's a bad thing though... pride.

gRaCe - maybe it's just friday.

zewt said...

whoalse - if i am selected, i will definitely go for it.

Thevan - ahhh... one who knows my heart haha...

CSK - well, to be fair to him... maybe he is really somebody big somewhere.

beetrice - What's GIT? mind my limited knowledge :)

Zuraida - quality of life... that's the most important thing.

Taxy Driver - okayyyy... now, i didnt get that.

zewt said...

Lee Su-Lyn - hey... thanks. well, i have always maintained that we are all staff, workers in this cruel world.... we must always remember that... to keep our feet on the ground.

crankster - bitch-slap... hahaha....

Kamigoroshi - hey edrei... yeah, i get what you mean. but that is not my exact point. i will always view success as something which is based on someone's values. and i will definitely not stop when i have achieved mine.

Terra Shield - :)... didnt really intend to kick anyone really.

Kellaw - hello there. welcome to AZAIG. well, still have not really made it but i am happy with where i am now.

Jed Yoong - hahahaha... sigh... i shall remain primitive then :P

zewt said...

myop101 - save me save me... i am falling to the dark side...

Jemima - i am happy when i am with ppl i love... :)

JoMel - hahaha... yeah, but i was encouraged by someone... and must be friday and i ran out of things to blog on friday... :P

Theodwyn - :P

Lil' Ms Pinky - nah, the last timei flew business, i was on MAS... now SIA :P

Kok Jin - there you go... i did it as i was told hahaha...

Rin - well, maybe i was also full of myself. we must all control our pride.

zewt said...

Klaw - yeah, friday virus i tell u :P

littlepolaris - chocolate cream chip only ah? hahaha... woah, send all the way to russia?

freethinker - hahaha... i am evil.

anon @ 1/11 9.04am - honestly, i am already happy at where i am now. i dont strive to get more as i am not prepared to sacrifice my health.

faisal admar - oh... it's a good thing for ppl like that... once you're rich... you're always happy. dont forget me when u get there ok? :)

2x2 matrix - that is true... i will be affected. but i am prepared for it. in fact, i want the downturn to come so that more ppl will be brought to the level where almost everyone can enjoy comfort, not just a few. that's the difference between me and the rest. i accept your apology. no hard feelings.

Anonymous said...

hi zewt,

I don't know you or 2x2 matrix, but can't help but to find this whole debacle amusing. You have an interesting blog, and you, as everyone are entitled to their opinion. Do you not think that perhaps you have become so defensive is because part of what 2x2 matrix had said had struck the chord of your being, and it is true, and it is not what you like to hear? From your retort to his comment, you are indeed very much a capitalist, with your gloating and boasting of what you HAVE? It makes you very much "up there", whatever it means.

JUst to let you know too, if you think this global downturn will make things more affordable, the poor/middle class will be affected too, so whatever that you think is affordable to them is not anymore. The downsizing means that the "rich" will afford these luxuries even more esp. when the recovery process starts.

Crime MAY not improve in good times, but it WILL certainly worsen in bad times. That is the difference !!

Mohamad Hilman bin Nordin said...

wow.

demn im still studying.
i want to get a ferrari too!

Faisal Admar said...

My Anonymous doesn't even has a nickname. Only coward hiding behind anonymous nick.

To me, this is his blog and he could write anything he feels like or thinks about. There's nothing wrong. Why should we care much about what he boasting about? His blog, his right. If you don't feel right or unhappy about it, why don't press your alt+delete button?

To blame him about what he wrote is way too much.

I'm not on anyone's side but to me those who talking about his achievement actually give me more strength to work harder and make more money to achieve what he have achieved.

Take care.

ven said...

up there or down there, happiness should be there even money is not everywhere.

Kellaw said...

Lol. Saw it coming sumore. In life sh!t happens. Just how we deal with it. I am still trying to track all the guys from MBS. Found several blogs. The old scouts have one. MBSOBA's dead website. Not that active. I guess yours is the most active one of all so far unless you have contacts with others who blogs.

erm said...

zewt,if its to prove a point,i wouldn't bother to reply

being up there or down here isn't that important on the internet

i'm here for anything good(variety of opinion).ignore rotten apple/bad durian/lemon.hehehe

Pookyma said...

Good one Boss!!

ANyway great weekend coz Man U creamed Hull and the Fools lost to Tottenham!!

missironic said...

I feel your disgruntle, zewt. compared to the someone who's up there, u being "down there" really sound such a poor thing, hor...

yeah, "sulk" more, ok? lolz...

tulipspeaks said...

tht was a good one! :-)


ammu.

Seaqueen said...

I like. Very subtle yet sarcastic.

Shuo said...

Up there people can afford new BMW all series by paying cash, not by qualifying for a bank loan to get it and be in debt after that. Aiyo, why stoop so low to post a blog entry like that. Haven't you heard that "Sarcasm is the lowest form of wit"?

PurpLe~MuShRooM said...

Opinions are like asshole... everybody has one.

"Joe" who is constantly craving said...

well theres pro n cons for thinking like that wat...so u can always say..if he can do it, why cant i?

rite?

well congrats on that regional position..then again, wat happen to the green pastures? not very green recently hor..

**************Jz***************** said...

if u're not there i think i dont fit into any part in this world...or should i say life is coming to an end for me :S

Anonymous said...

agree wif
anon November 1, 2008 9:04 AM

congrats 2 u 4 having so many +ve thinking readers wor

y "primitive and communist" sound like a wrong ya

zewt said...

anon 1/11 5.29pm - i would conclude from your comment that ppl are all selfish, they only care for themselves. i sensed that you are concern about the recession because it will hit you badly and the rich will be able to afford more? i have said it before and i will say it again. i will welcome this recession even if I have to suffer from it, i will be prepared for it. i am still adamant about a need to re-align wealth. you said the rich will be able to afford luxury during the recovery. are you saying that you will missed out on the opportunity and thus, would rather not have a recession? Or... are you enjoying luxury now as a mid level income earner and is afraid to lose the luxury. i for one, is prepared to lose it if it means better life for more ppl. of cos, it will first come with suffering. crime is a totally discussion altogether.

mohamad hilman bin nordin - hey man! welcome to AZAIG. honestly, i dont dream of one.

faisal admar - truly, whatever you said speaks a lot about the title of your blog :) many ppl asked me to f*** those who disagree with me as this is my blog. but i rather not do that (perhaps not yet). i prefer debate to debate. and i am truly glad you take my opinions positively.

ven - couldnt agree more. but then again, to some, money is where joy is.

kellaw - i know of a few more but they are more personal blog which i dont think i should share with you. we should encourage more bloggers from MBS... forward we must play the game!

erm - well, this is also an opinion :P .... debate is healthy. as long as everyone has a debate mind.

pookyma - hahahahaha... that's like one of the best thing last weekend!! :P

zewt said...

missironic - hehe... i am glad you share my sorrow. anyway, there's nothing to sulk or be happy about. we are all modern slaves... i will always maintain that.

tulipspeaks - thanks :)

seaqueen - apparently sarcastic is the lowest form of wit. cant satisfy everyone i must say.

Shuo - hey there. welcome to AZAIG. that is why i said... i am still down here... hehehehe... never said i am up there... did i?

purple mushroom - and this one is really bringing the assh... i mean opinions out of many ppl.

constant craver joe - grassy land is experiencing a near collapse in her economy... not a good time to go.

jz - dont be so sad lah... go and hantam your boss' head... hehe...

anon @ 3/11 11.07am - well, it's always good to have opinions like yours to balance things out. :) and why primitive and communist sounds like a bad thing? well... simply becos i dont think i am like that lor...

j or ji said...

aiyoh!

i takda peminat setia pun kat my blog..

:P

Huei said...

funny how all the anonymous agrees with each other

hmm..

apparently not alot of people got ur sarcasm

from some anonymous
"JUst to let you know too, if you think this global downturn will make things more affordable, the poor/middle class will be affected too, so whatever that you think is affordable to them is not anymore. The downsizing means that the "rich" will afford these luxuries even more esp. when the recovery process starts."

must be in the rich category in denial!

Angie Tan said...

LOL...

Even when 2x2 matrix is "up there", he might find that there's someone who's even more successful than he is. (".)

Then, he'll be disgruntled...

aSstHa said...

ahh my sweets... let's not stoop to that level...

we all know u're much better den dat... he who blows his own trumpet is not a good thing...

n i'm very sure (after following ur blog for over a year now) that u're no such person to write such words... after all, two wrongs never make a right no?

zewt said...

j or ji - pasti jorji pun ada... :)

huei - hahahaha... sounds like someone trying to protect the rich position perhaps?

Angie Tan - hahaha... think we should leave him alone already.

aSstHa - yup... perhaps i was just a little charged up that day :)

Thevan said...

totally unrelated, but i noticed u replied to evry one of em comments! salute.rspek.

TRACE said...

hi zewt,

i love to read ur blog, no doubt u rcvd thinking blogger award, some really made me think hard!
but this one, sarcastic...=)
r u offended?

H.C. Tan said...

i like ur sarcasm and witty remarks haha

Jacss said...

well, u hv every right to voice yr offends if others don't even care abt minding their comments that might hurt.... !!
thk god u hv a big heart & accept d apology!! hopefully 2x2 matrix had learnt to be more careful with his thoughts...some words are better not tell, yeah??
and i like yr amusing teasing there...haha
BMW enuf edi lar....???

zewt said...

thevan - hey! well, i think it's only polite to reply them all.

trace - nah, dunno what got into me :P...

h.c.tan - someone once told me sarcasm can be scintillating, couldnt agree more :)

jacss - BMW... no need ler. i shall stick with my current 4 wheels for now. who knows, i might really need to move abroad :) ....

narrowband said...

Opinions and attacks are two different things. Attacks are uncalled for. Opinions are welcomed.

Anyway, relax Zewt. He's not worth your response.

zewt said...

narrowband - :)... must be the friday mood then...

Anonymous said...

sometimes i find it amusing how so many Malaysians "don't GET sarcasm" . Perhaps more should go watch House

zewt said...

anon @ 15/1 1.34pm - my sentiments exactly...